I'm getting to the point in school were some of the peeps are really starting to grind my gears. People I knew from day one I was inevitably going to clash have become pretty much intolerable with 7 weeks left of school. I think there are people like that everywhere though. I've met some okay people too. I guess it balances out.
There was some yelling yesterday in my class. The bad kind.
After bombing a test last week, or what I consider bombing a test anyway, I am pleased to have been given a homework assignment in place of the weekly test. However now I am covered in marker.
Oh yeah, I came here to check my mail not write a journal. Hungh...
Geez!!!!
oh jeez bombing a test is never good, guh I bombed a biology test last semester, made me sick.
Yeah, I totally know what you mean about getting sick over a test. blaaaah.
As a kid I could panic over stuff to the point where I thought my life was ending and the universe was about to implode. I would never grow up and the horrible moment would never pass. I would be embarrassed for all eternity and never live it down. Even remembering it now is a bit nauseating. *deep breath*
Anything like that?
As for dwellings I am rather neurotic as an adult over several things but I am able to function but last smester I was in a depression that lasted several weeks and experienced 3 existential crisis
I am also extremely neurotic as well. I wonder why that is? I don't have OCD but I feel comforted by having control over certain little things. Like maybe that's all I can control so I cling to it.
Ever hear of something called cognitive behavioral therapy? It's about trying to consciously control how you feel by becoming aware of your habits and patterns. Like, if you became depressed one day you could say to yourself "ok, I know I am prone to depression and I can realistically handle this without becoming absorbed in it" and then do your best to not engage with your negative feelings. I know it sounds kind of whacked out but I really thing there is something to it...
Adfter that hell hole (which consisted of a racist principle, no one understanding, and back stabs) I went to a private christian school. Let me tell you...it was a wonderful thing that place. First year was wobbly at first but it got so much better. Say what you will about the religion stuff but those were good people there. The teachers were good, not all the kids were yeah that's bound to happen but that was a good place and I will always love that school.
I don't have OCD either but I'm neuortic cause different things seem intimidating and things in my life kinda shook me a lot and just left a bad impression. I dont necessarily do a whole lot though I'm kinda satisfied with that, though people push me to do stuff. I do feel comforted having control over things and I like for things to follow a pattern too or a routine and for things to not change all too much.
I haven't heard of that but it sounds interesting enough